So, first official piece for the shop. It seems only fitting, yes? Now I just need to come up with a shop name.
It’s also the first thing I’ve made in a few days; I’ve been too busy to get much done in the way of creating. I’m in that awkward beginning stage of getting ready to make things/getting things organized, when you have to drag everything out and make the place look like a tornado passed through. Fuck it up to clean it up, and isn’t that another perfect metaphor for my life these days …
I’m also in that awkward stage of having far more inspirations than I have time, energy, or materials. Or money. Hfs I need to find me a grant for small businesses. One for a desperate, displaced Donna who refuses to go gently into that good night. I have no real options for working outside the home, so what’s left? I have to believe between the Making Things and the Writing Things I can make enough money to start getting out of the hole the last 29 years left me in.
Proof of Life – and that I still haven’t figured out lighting. Also proof that I can sometimes look like my mother – that’s her smile through and through. Also also – where the fuck did my lips go? Of all the things age has robbed me of, this one is most egregious.
Anyway, that pic – I’m wearing makeup for the first time in almost five years. And first time in 29 years that I’m wearing it for myself and not some performative social function. I felt both more and less me, which is odd. But then again, so am I so why am I surprised?
Okay this was supposed to be longer but it’s 2:30 in the morning and I’m about to start banging my head off the desk. Tales of The Great Yule Log Hunt will have to wait, along with angst over hosting my very first Yule meal. It’s time for gratitudes and a song share before I say goodnight.
The Gratitudes
I got the cards made, printing and mailed. Woo. Still not sure if they’re nice cards or dime store darlings but that’s okay. First ones are always going to be awkward.
The man has been coming through with what he’s said he’d do. Step in the right direction.
Peppermint sugar sticks and walnuts
Taco Doritos
Shopping is done and I won’t have to leave the house for at least a week.