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March of the Pigs

March 31, 2020 · Leave a comment ·

It’s amazing how much one month can swing between good and bad, isn’t it? My month started with this:

And ended with that little old woman in the hospital.

What’s worse than having to take your elderly mother to the emergency room? Having to take her in the middle of a pandemic, when the hospital is on complete lock down.

Things are shit, aren’t they? Swear to the Gods this month has lasted forever. But only 10.5 hours to go and then we’ll get a fresh new month.

Speaking of which:

So, 30 poems in 30 days. Might as well just dive right in to the deep end, yeah? I haven’t done a poetry challenge in several years, and I can count the poems I’ve written since then on one hand.

But fuck it, yeah? The Gods hate a coward, and so do I.

~*~

So back to the car – holy fucking shit. Better than I would have dared dreamed I could get. Way better. A 2018 with under 30k miles, bluetooth, usb ports, backup camera. I got a good deal on it because the owner was a stupidly heavy smoker. It reeks of cigarettes and I don’t even care. It just makes it more fitting for a car dedicated to Odin.

Of course the downside is now that I have a car and can go anywhere I want I don’t dare for fear of getting my mother sick. On the plus side, I can get to the store as often as I need, without having to beg rides from people tired of carting my ass around.

And, too, I won’t be able to go out and spend money I can’t afford now that I have a car payment.

~*~

The gratitudes:

The unemployed hermit life is actually paying off.

We have enough money to pay the bills.

I’ve managed to cross two things off my goal board for the year.

For every bad there’s been something equally good.

~*~

Proof of Life/Proof of Presence

December 4, 2019December 5, 2019 · Leave a comment ·

There aren’t enough hours in the day now, nor enough spoons, but I am One Strong Willed Bee so I power through. I’m not getting everything done but it’s enough to feel good about everything. Right now I’m laying groundwork, trying to build a solid foundation so come January I can Get Busy.

What sucks about the groundwork is so much of it is spending time I don’t have right now to save time down the line. Which I will surely appreciate at some point but right now it is pretty hecking frustrating. Today I spent 2+ hours building a folder of things to use for DYD and the cards I hope to send out – but I also did yesterday’s DYD page, cooked a bomb ass stew, earned few coppers, started working on ideas for stuff to make – things to buy with those coppers – washed the dishes, took care of animals and a Young Dude and an Old Mother.

And all on about 4 hours of sleep. That’s going to catch up with me. The good news is J is on a decent sleep schedule for a few days. I swear every time he cycles around to it (going to sleep between late afternoon and mid-evening) I get so hopeful, that maybe it will stick this time and I’ll won’t be stuck juggling being awake for him and being awake for mom – and being awake for business hours, because hfs that’s all adding up as well.

Too much to do and not enough time or spoons – nothing but pure determination to keep up.

(That’s going to leave a mark someone whispers. It might be me. Might not, too, and that’s a whole ‘nother story I don’t have time to tell.)

Now it’s time to fix coffee and see what I can get done before I fall asleep on my desk. Well, after the Gratitudes:

~*~

Today I am grateful for:

Good food

Cold weather

A kiss on the cheek from the One I miss most (4 weeks, Loki. I’m counting.)

Ideas!

Inspiration!

And the picture I posted up there, which I am pretty sure is the only photo of the two of us, and became day 2 of DYD

~*~

And I wasn’t going to share a tune since I didn’t use one for the title, but I just got another kiss on the cheek in the form of a song so why not?

The Blissful Bee

Blissfully Buzzing Through the Adventure of a New Life.

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